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Tuesday, 8 September 2009 @ 11:32
On Changing Career I think I want to learn about the proper writing style all over again. I love writing and I think it's a shame if I waste away that little talent I have just because I'm crap at style writing. I'm not very good at coming up with a good story or fancy word. But I think being an editor suits me. I can help edit/correct people with awesome writing skill and make sure their writings are presented in a good manner. I mean I have the basics, I always try to use the proper punctuation in every writing, I put hyphen at the right places, I try to make my writings clearer with the right paragraphs and the fact that I'm neurotic about proofreads and spellings just make me the perfect candidate, right? I just need to shape up on some grammars, tenses and writing style; and enrinched my vocabulary. Problem is, is it too late for me to change career and learn all over again? Friday, 26 June 2009 @ 15:32
On Worrying about Debt XD I got my first Credit Card 3 months ago. At first I was like 'Yeay!'. It was a customer appreciation program from my bank, they offered me to make a CC without the hassle of a normal applier. I gladly accepted it, even though the limit was very very small. Anyway, I remember my first purchase using the CC, it was a gift for my good friend. It costs me around 15% from my total limit, it was nothing. Then the next day I went shopping again and bought a pair of shoe that costs 20% from the total limit. Still not worrying. That is until my third purchase. The amount was still insignificant, but when you put all of those debt-claims altogether it makes for quite an amount, and I suddenly got a mini heart-attack thinking of how I'd pay those debts. Since then, after every purchase using the CC, I'd immediately check the total debts and in my head I'd be counting all my savings to see if I can pay it by monthend. See, all my life I've been told all this scary things about not being able to pay your debts and how mean the debt collectors are and it all freaked me out. I'm trying to be an obedient customer and avoiding the unnecessary penalties that may arise. Ironically, in the end I got tired of worrying about my total debts that I ended up running back to my Debit card. I mean, with Debit card I have total control of how much balance I have left and will be more able to plan my shopping budget. I guess I'm not not as strong as I thought I am in being a person that owes money. A thought occured to me once that maybe I need to raise the limit, but that would just make matter worse in monthend when it comes for me to pay the debts. Say all the nice things you want about CC, but until I get enough salary raise, I'm staying away from my CC >.< Saturday, 30 May 2009 @ 00:46
On the things I might never have I am currently looking at pictures from a recent old acquaintance's birthday bash. These people, acquaintance, I say. They're not my friends. I just know them. I used to befriend them, sometime ago, very very shortly. Compared to their whole life, I'm just merely a small spot of dust in their memory. Yet, thanks to network technology we call Facebook, I (and maybe they too, but I definitely doubt that) can track through changes in our life. Somehow, that makes me feel like I've never grown apart from them. Twisted way of thinking, I know. Why these particular people? Because I used to adore them. They're different. I can feel from the first moment I know them, that me and them are like-minded. They're open-minded, they're free and daring, they're chic and fabulous. They have the kind of friendship I've always dreamed about. Not the kind of cutesy, sisterhood-kind of friendship. But just the kind where everyone knows they're position. The kind of friendship where you can tease each other to just that point of understanding. Not too rude, not too condenscending. The kind of friendship where everybody acknowledge their own strength and weakness, and not ashamed of it. Where everybody is honest and not fake or pretending. Where there is no competition, and even if there is, everybody should back out and not just one giving ways to the other. I don't know, maybe these description is just too general. But I know and I trust my instinct, and my instinct says these people are fabulous in my own meaning of fabulous. I know I'm not big on friendship thing, that doesn't mean I don't want one. I'm just too cynical that I can ever find the kinds of people I want to befriend with, and even then, who's to say they want to befriend me? Labels: Friends, Relationship Tuesday, 19 May 2009 @ 09:36
Sleeping Beauty I'm a huge fan of sleeping. Srsly. It's funny to think that when you're a kid your parents would force you hard to have an afternoon nap, but you'd rather stay awake and play in the park. Then you see yourself today you think, I'd give anything to have a short nap in the afternoon on a hot day =P. I love sleeping, I love waking up late, I love curling in after lunch, I love laying down after a long day, alas, I love life more. Since I started working full time, sleeping and lazying around has become something I treassure. Like a rain in a desert. In the office I work 9-5 with limited access to the internet, and limited privacy too. Then I have night classes that stops me from being able to reach home under 9pm. Tired as I am, I'm not ready to give up my favourite activities yet, that is going online and browsing the internet, watching some TV series, reading books and my new favourite activity for the past 5 months, chatting on the phone with the boyfriend. It saddened me that I no longer have much time to read books and ponder away after, thinking of the meaning between the lines; or slouch on the couch all day watching TV series and fantasize that my life could be as dramatic; or fix my eyes all day in front of my computer writing, listening, interacting. That's where this whole thing becomes a problem, I'd rather use the free time I have to indulge in these activities than to sleep, as much as I love it. I'm giving up sleeping early and my afternoon nap (in the weekend) for life. I'm giving up waking up late in the weekend for a healthier life (that is if I'm not too lazy to jog around or swim). So sleeping more than 10 hours (like I always love) has become something that comes once every blue moon, if I'm lucky. Ironically, to imagine dropping work and school and other daytime activities for a moment of lazying around feels so hard. I'm so used to having something to do that the thought of having nothing to do scares me. That, and maybe I just love to whine =P. Wednesday, 13 May 2009 @ 22:08
And after a while... Today I had a small talk with a friend who complained that she's tired of listening to her colleagues whine about their partners. Most of the whinings are how these girls feel insecure about their partners and try to implement certains rules to their partners. Rules such as no working late with female colleagues, no cheek-to-cheek greetings with female friends, decline all female clients, basically no connection whatsoever with any other female without their partners' supervision. I used to have a couple of girl friends who complained to me too about their insecurities. These complains sounded so extreme, that sometimes I feel like slapping them. They get so insecure about little things like exes, female colleagues/friends, even their own friends. These complains ranges from "My boyfriend looks at other girls when we go out together." to the absurd and nonsensible ones like "He said our friend is pretty." You get the point. Why I said nonsensible, because saying someone pretty is normal. That doesn't mean your partner likes them. Aside from that, I also heard a lot of cry for help from my guy friends who said their GF is to controlling. I heard them make fun of their GF's rules, or laugh at each other how they're so whipped and coward for having such a controlling GF or worse tries to break the rules and when their GF is away by flirting more with their female friends. I asked them why they do it. They said it's because the more guys are controlled, the more likely they disobey the rules. It's just how guys are. I tried to learn from both sides of these and come up with my own rules. 1. I don't make rules with my partner. I just simply say in the beginning of our relationship that if he's ever get attracted to another girl, I'd want him to be honest with me, no matter how hurtful that might be, rather than cheat. 2. I don't mind him having connection with other females if he wont mind me having social relationship with other males. 3. If I ever feel insecure, I talk to him directly instead of whining to my other friends. And by talking to him directly means I talk to him nicely, saying I feel uncomfortable of his relationship with a certain female and ask nicely whether he could possibly do anything about it. 4. Basically I give him enough freedom and be understanding so that he won't ever feel suffocated or controlled to avoid him rebelling on me. But give him little warning once in a while to show that I won't like it and won't forgive him if he ever do something hurtful to me. I think it's a good thing that I'm blessed with such a big heart and that I forgive and trust him easily. I'm also lucky that he's so much in love with me and we have this understanding, that he knows his own limits and consequences of having a relationship with me. Labels: Friends, Relationship |