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Wednesday, 31 December 2008 @ 19:05
311208: Dreams Come True We could never predict what's gonna happen in the future. And call me skeptical, but I'm sick of expecting and hoping for the better future. These days I just live the day as easy as I could. I find it better that way. As I stop expecting the best from others, I find the things they do surprises me. Their kindness struck my heart, and even if they were evil I wouldn't be that broken-hearted because I never expect them to be angelic. Gain some, lose some. I lost one of my dearly friend this year on May. He died from a motorbike accident. I didn't cry, because death is inevitable, when it's your time. I believe he went to a better place, because he was a good person, at least to me. I loved him, and I still love him and I will always love him. No one could replace his place in my heart. I gain tons of amazing friends too. These strangers, that I know not their background, continues to struck me with their kindness and ideas. They amazes me with how much they care about other strangers. They made me believe that I'm not alone in this world, that it's natures selection for people with the same point of view to be together. We may not be best friends forever. But I do hope whatever relationship we have would last for now and many years to come. My Granny passed away this year too. Again, I believe it's for her best, rather than facing painful days in her life. She passed away gracefully and, I hope, painless. Hopefully she's in a much better place and that I just want her to know that we, her children and her grandchildren, would always pray for the best for her. But our family also had a few babies born this year too. So, it's not really shrinking, our family. Instead, we're gaining more younger members to continue the legacy =D. My Parents and brother went away again for another job post in Budapest, Hungary. I'm used to living alone now. It's no big deal. I have my job to keep my mind occupied. I don't have a partner (read: boyfriend) like I used to before, but I have a good friend, my own personal sunshine, to keep me happy most of my emo time these days. He continues to make me believe I am a good person and that I am loved and that I deserve the best in my life, therefore I should say I'm pretty lucky =D. I learned that nothing in this world lasts forever. Love, trust, happiness, wealth, everything has a limit. I learned that I should enjoy every moment I could smile and laugh, and I shouldn't keep being sad if my world reaches its low points, because it will eventually turn around, whatever situation I'm in. I learned that when I lose some I will gain some and vice versa. Maybe not the next day, maybe not immediately, maybe not in the same amount, but surely it would feel relieving. I learned that people change. But you must always respect them. If you can't deal with it, back off. You can always pray for their best, tho. I learned that your best friends are the one that will always accept you for who you are. That will forgive you for whatever mistakes you made. That grow together with you. That even though they may not believe in the same thing with you but still respects you nevertheless. That stays on your side no matter what. That maybe far away but keep your hearts close. They are the one that trusts you with their deepest secret, the one that runs to you and shares their misery, believing you would understand their pain. They're the one that believes, even though you change, you're still the same you inside. I learned that I deserve to be happy and to be loved. Even by the wrong person. That all is fair in love and war, and everything happens for a reason, no matter how wrong it sounds. I learned that you must be in pain and go through all sorts of painful experiences before you grow better and became the better person that you are. That most people go through that heart-breaking, keens-bending, tummy-clenching phase of losing faith, but it will teach you how to be a more mature person. That hearts are fragile but not irreparable. That if you believe strong enough, dreams do come true. And therefore, I welcome 2009 with open hearts and a smile on my face. I hope next year I'll be a better person, we'll all be a better person. May our dreams come true. Don't stop dreaming guys, dreams do come true =D Labels: Personal |