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Sunday, 8 March 2009 @ 20:17
Dear Old Crush... We all have some good memories in high school. I had the best times in high school, there are times when I just want to time travel and go back to my high school time. Those were the times of freedom, partying all night long, rebellion, no responsibilities, no restrictions. It's like when we're in high school we can be whatever we want. We dream and we believe fully in our heart that we can become what we dream of. If I recalled back, I used to be so naively in love too in high school. I had this crush on a guy friend, his name was Tom. He was very nice to me, very caring too, we were good friends. We hang with the same circle, went to parties together, shared drinks, rode on the same taxis, copied each others' notes in class, it was good times. He broke my heart and choose the other girl, but we were still good friends. And I for a moment (a long moment I might say) I still believed he was the one for me, that he was the guy I want to marry. He was that perfect, but it was so silly =P. Then life came, reality began, adulthood started. I had to move back to Indonesia to continue with my studies and he went to London. We tried to keep in touch. But it's pretty hard with both of us having new friends and new activities that doesn't involve each other. We started to fell apart. I forgot about him for a while. I had new dreams, new life, new friends, new ambitions. What I envisioned in high school stayed behind as a good reminder of who I used to be, which is a free spirited girl. Someone I'd like to be again someday, somehow. Today is Tom's birthday. His 22nd birthday. I totally forgot about it if it weren't for facebook birthday reminder on my facebook homepage. It brings back memories obviously. But I don't regret leaving it behind. I have a great blessed life right now, I wouldn't want to trade it for the world. And so I went to his page, left him a message on the wall greeting him a very happy birthday. That's when I found out that... He's MARRIED!!! Uh huh. Shocked? Absolutely. Surprised? Totally. But I could only smile, as I reminisce how naive and silly I was for thinking he and I could be together. Of course it's impossible, right from the very start. So, yeah I'm happy for him. It would be nice to see him again after all this time and have a nice chat over a cup of coffee. But I'm not sad or jealous or anything. I'm in a great relationship with an amazing guy. I wouldn't trade him for anybody.  So, Happy Birthday, dear old friend. Congratz on your wedding! May you life a long and happy life together. I wish I have the guts to jump into marriage this fast like you did =P. Labels: Friends, Relationship |